sunday

DSC00871
Originally uploaded by grendelsdj

thanks to hieu, i can now blog. everybody say, "thank hieu!"

now the obligatory hieu/you joke has been made, i can get on to other things. i have been horrible about writing. seriously i have not written anything, anything, in like a year.

i've gotten over being angry at the stupid grad school letter i received friday. i am still not happy to be waiting, but i should not let other people determine my future, regardless of any other factors. i am here because i chose to be here, if i do not want to be here, i should leave and accept the consequences.

i know these things. i really do, but i have a hard time not slipping into old behaviors and modes of thinking when i get stressed. i'm being silly. enough of that.

happy sunday to all.
jennyp

angry photoshop

angry photoshop
Originally uploaded by grendelsdj

today, i am angry. the anger is born of an overwhelming amount of frustration and impatience. i am trying to settle it down a bit and making angry photoshops help.

the letter i was waiting on, that was supposed to tell me which path i will be taking for the next three years, told me instead that i'm going to have to wait another couple of weeks for someone else to tell me what my life will be. i hate being at the mercy of other people. i hate the idea that my decisions and my life are dependent on someone else.

and that's the way it is.

jp